Archived fic rec - So Wise We Grow

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Title: So Wise We Grow

Author: Deastar

Fandom: Star Trek (film, 2009)

Rating: R (maybe PG-15–mature themes, but nothing explicit)

Pairing: Kirk/Spock, past Spock/Uhura

Warnings: canon character death, minor character death, discussion of childhood sexual abuse, slut shaming, violence

Other notes: adoption, family, raising a child, angst, culture clash, big bang

Length: 81k

Summary: “Commander Spock, we have located your son,” the Vulcan lady on the screen says, which would be great, except Jim can tell by the look on Spock’s face that he’s never heard of this kid before in his life. “If it is expedient, the child will be sent to join you on the Enterprise within the week.”

 

 

So, I was going to spend this whole week on Pacific Rim, but I saw that stuffimgoingtohellfor was looking for fic recs, so I took a short detour to find her some fics. First on the list? Surprise parenting.

This one is a classic. And, for some reason, even though I have a huge list of classic, must-read fics–sometimes I get too distracted by the new shiny stuff that I forget just how many gems I have hidden back  in my bookmarks. Most of them are really long, though. Gah, so many. I have so many days where I get into a funk and can’t seem to find anything to write about, even though I have so many fics. it’s terrible.

This is exactly the kind of big bang fic I adore–one where the length allows you to make such a full, vibrant story, one where you get major character and relationship development, a healthy dose of action and plot, minor character development. The fic has so much room to breathe and grow.

Which also reminds me that I never finished my big bang fic. Still got survivor’s guilt over that. This reminds me what I could have–ah, well, there’s no sense whining over it if I’m not going to actually work on it. Could, should, would–none of those mean anything without do, and the doing is not coming for me.

This fic–I don’t think it makes me want to have kids. I’m not sure any fic could do that. but it reminds me that, sometimes, you end up in a position where, whether you want it or not, you’re going to be responsible for another life, influential, meaningful. It might not be your kid, but–maybe it’s not like this for everyone, but I feel a bit over-responsible for things and people. I’m a people-pleaser, a care-taker. I’m someone who tries to reach out, when I can. So this, to me, reminds me of all the awesome responsibility that gives. It’s not easy, and you’ll make plenty of mistakes, and communication can fail in so many ways. But when that responsibility comes, you just have to do your best.

It’s an exquisite read, full stop.

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Originally posted on Tumblr on 08/12/13